sad sad day..
saw _ _ _ _ _ _ in the morning at mama shop.
Hais, maybe i should take the 'strike out' away.
我也想忘记他，但是我的心就是不听话.
I kept thinking back the times we've shared.
Those good and bad times.
something went terribly wrong.
I was angry.
I was sad.
I left him.
I needn't him to cheer me up.
I had someone else.
He thought I don't need him anymore.
I loved him.
Ever so dearly.
But misunderstandings after another.
I don't know what to say..
I've been in love with him for more than a year.
It's been 494 days I've been adoring him.
The day he told me that he doesn't love me anymore..
"Errs . . . Ya. sry nehs. After we patched for about few days, my feeling fading away,
i tried to nt let it fade, and love you deeply like last time how i love you, but cant. sry baby!
i remembered every single word you said
Because i know you mean all these (:
Oh yes I've been adoring him even though i had boyfriends.
Because you can't forget someone you love
you only can take them as memories.
They come by once, and they won't come back again.
It should be 1 year 4th month we've been together by now.
But i guess i'm dreaming.. Why ain't you here?
I don't need to be together with you..
I just need you to be happy and smiling all the way.
I just want you to study hard and get good grades.
I just want you to live healthily and stay fit rather sick.
I will never forget the day i helped you to wipe your face when you had high fever.
i still put the towel in the fridge till it froze (:
There I was, hunching and crouching at my seat, staring into space.Thinking of all possibilities of how and what if. Thinking of all reasons of why would he do that. Why would he do this to me? How could he?
Does he want me to leave? Does he want me to die? Does he even know I exist? What does he see in me? Does he not like me but said he likes just to not hurt my feelings? Does he know that lying would only be worse?
I remember you falling asleep on my shoulder while holding my hands,
and me whispering to your ears that i will never leave you again.
Oh yes i did go with other guys..
I wanted to forget you.
It only worked for a little while.
And I'll break up because they can't be compared to you.
You're someone in my heart that i've ever loved.
Others that hurt me are all jerks.
Maybe I do deserve this for hurting you so much..
leaving you and going with other guys,
apologising doesn't help but I just want you to know this.
I don't need to be together with you because I know you'll be unhappy with me.
I tried my best to make you laugh when you don't want to smile.
I won't ask you for patch, your feeling has already faded for me.
I still love you no matter what, KWL.
Sometimes, the person you want the most, you're better off without (:
