Today think and think and think..
Really sad ):
Sat at East CC corner stairs,
want to cry out also can't.
Wo ku bu chu lai le .
2 more days to 1 year 4 months if i didn't hurt him.
21st April 2007..
Maple Story Aquila at GPQ outside.
Same guild, XCrossSymbol.
He was level 113 and i was 8x.
Someone told me you're really in love with a girl.
Well, good luck okay.
Just stay happy in whatever you do.
I don't want to see a sad _ _ _ _ _ _ yah :D
That time walk under rain after training,
just to pass you the notebook of apology,
because i made you angry..
Cried for 1 hour under that storm while walking home.
Thought and thought,
seriously i just need you to stay happy (:
While sending me to bus stop that time you hold my hands,
I love it (:
Still sang to you Jian Dan Ai,
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开.
I really meant that sentence..
But you seem ignorant about it.
I know you already fell for another girl..
I know you won't come back to me.
I know you onced love me but i didn't cherished what you gave me.
I'm still keeping that glass bottle you gave to me when
we were sec one (:
I asked you whether you remembered it,
you don't really have any ying xiang.
It's alright.. Because I know it's still something you gave to me (:
I also know that it's wrong continue loving you..
wrong falling for you.
I guess it's wrong knowing you ?
I can give you smiles, laughters,
but i just can't give the happiness you need.
I know i've once played with your heart..
And i'm very aware too that you won't trust me anymore.
I tried my best at 30th March when you were back by my side.
But this time your feeling has faded,
well, i can't really do anything.
Just stay at corners,
waiting for your return.
I've already hurt the heart that you've given me.
Think i'm someone who doesn't feel hurt too.. ?
If i'm not hurt i wouldn't have cried for you,
i wouldn't be writing all these now and
the letter i wrote at East CC today.
When you onced loved me,
I didn't cherish and treasure what i really have at that mean time.
Maybe this is all Heaven's will?
When we were together,
I use to whisper in your ears that i'll never leave you
whenever you're asleep beside me.
It's once told in my previous posts.
But these are all heaven's will saying that
it's destined your feelings will fade for me,
and it has faded (:
You are the person i want the most to be happy,
and i realised i've lost something so important to me.
But now i believe, that i'm the one at fault,
knowing now that there's no other chances.
Tears can't stop flowing at 19th of April (:
It's when that message i recieved
is so heart aching to see,
so _l_ to see.
Stopping time from running,
stopping earth from rotating,
running away from reality,
doesn't help even a little.
I just want to tell you something,
that my heart just wont listen..
It just wont listen to me.
I love you,
I'm sorry.
