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Nowadays very shag sia.. My attitude getting worst.
Alot people told me off because of that.
Really la, my attitude getting out of line.
Small thing I kpkb, disrespect, alot.
Trying to change back to my old self,
but need time right. Everytime come and scold me,
kan me, like there's no tomorrow
I know you all telling me la, I will change 1.
But you tell me I not trying leh, wtf you trying to say?
Bo observe me then sae I bo try, I already apologised to most of them,
never scold them, what else you all want me do sia.
Come home so tired alr, mother still there ask ask ask.
Jibai la ask liao I reply, then anyhow make wild guesses,
say I sleep at guy house, I steal thing, lanjiao la.
Think all you want. Say I never study your mind,
don't understand you, do you even think you understand me.
Say I cry for little things, you think I really cry for little things?
You want cry jiu cry, think can control 1 isit.
Everytime go your boyfriend house stay, got home like no home.
Only come home on weekdays, sometimes never.
More and more days going over to chua chu kang already.
Christmas I spent it with you.
But most of the occasions you spend it with your boyfriend and his son.
So what if you give me presents often, you always go Malaysia never call me along.
Go shopping jiu never call me, go visit relative jiu pester me.
This time want call me along during Chinese new year,
but don't you think it's the wrong timing.
Everytime go with your boyfriend, I ask why so bad never call me along,
you laugh abit then walk away.
So what if you give me pocket money everyday.
So what if you seldom lose your temper on me.
You spend more time on your work and your boyfriend.
It's like you're more like his son's mother than mine
You think you understand me, but you don't.
I know you don't want me to walk the way my brother walked.
You said you can't sleep as long as I don't get home.
After 1am you'll go to bed.
Sleep till morning, around night time then ask what time I reached home.
New year eve, christmas eve, and one of my friend's probation day were the only days I stayed out and didn't go home.
It's holidays, I know you won't allow me to stay out.
Find things that's really the truth and tell you, you'll go back to the same thing that I'm wrong in and continue to talk about it.
You said I overlimit alr, you think I want?
I said I'm tired, you told me tired so what.
I told you tired means tired, can want then want, don't want then don't want meh?
And you told me is me myself that made myself so tired.
So one big round, you still wanna say it's my fault for being tired.
Yeah, it's my fault, it's all my fault.
My fault for coming home late, my fault for not understanding you, my fault.
New year I cried 5 times, isn't it amazing.
Really happy new year pls. For Joel's part I really no mood alr,
you still keep guess stupid things, say I steal bikes,
just because brother took away the bike seat, I replaced a new one,
say I steal bike? Still tell me you never ask if I steal, is ask my friend steal,
you're just giving stupid ways out.
You told me you called me a dozen times.
I told you at least I bothered to call back.
You said I've hurt you for this line.
If I don't care, would I even call?
Yeah, this is my fault again.
Reading my blog and telling me stuffs you shouldn't,
reading my notebooks I write to other people,
reading my inbox and outbox,
you think you like it if you were in my shoes?
Breaking in privacy and stuffs, it's really a horrible thing to do.
Saving my friends' numbers,
blaming me for stuffs I don't do when you say you'll do it.
I know you care. But you're not doing it the right way.
I memorized your number. I've tried my best to show you that I love you.
You? Do you even bother to memorize 8 numbers?
You only bothered to tell me you search contacts.
Grandma gambled, I know you've been working hard to earn money,
I tried to tell myself not to get the phone because it's a want, not a need.
Do you even know? You don't.
So what if you tell me you love me.
You don't show it. You only show it to your boyfriend
