On the third day, you said you loved me more and more. If today was the third day, would you love me more or would your feeling still fade?

Sad these days, things are stressing me out. Arguements and quarrels all twirling around my mind as if there is no fucking tomorrow. I kept telling myself if I were to die tomorrow, would I still reply the same way I typed? Yeah, that's when my 'give in' comes in. Maybe I do deserve this actually, because of what I've done previously? Or maybe I've been really mean. If you were in my shoes, you'd understand.

Baby, I don't know what I need to do.. What can I do? Seriously I feel helpless. Everytime when I think about this, it's like there is nothing I can do. No matter how good or how well I treat you, it still remains there, unchanged. When will your feeling be gained back? I don't even know if you understand how I feel.. I guess there's a possibility that you'll not because you're not me. Try being the one waiting, you'd not want to, but yet I've to face it. I'm loving you so much yet half of your love's with another girl.. How hurting can that be? You said you needed time, I'll give you the time.. May it be forever? Yeah I can wait now.. but I have my limits too. I'm trying to hold on so tight onto you yet you're cutting me away. I see you throwing my heart away more than cherishing me. I can wait, and I will wait.. But maybe until you've gained back everything, I may not have feelings for you anymore. This is what I get for loving you too deep.. Tears, cuts. Why must I love you so much? Your hearts with another girl.. You promised me you won't stop loving me because of her. You told me that you're willing to give her up for me. If only you know that this is going to happen, why would you bother to love me from the start? These are all lies isn't it. You said you wanted to marry me when you grow up, now I guess I'm not the one you want to marry anymore eh? I feel so freaking heartbroken.. Are you toying with me? You always break your promises.. Always. You always give excuses.. pushing things away. On the first day, we sat on that bench, you held my hands and told me you love me. You gave a peck on my cheeks and told me you'll forget her. Our contracts were not much of a use.. The result of loving you so much and entrusting my love onto your hands were only causing deeper cuts. Giving up someone that I love is not because I want to.. but it's because it's more hurting to hang on. If only today was the first day we're being together, would you treat me the same way it was? I guess times do change, and people change with the flow of time. Your heart used to belong to me, but now it's drifting away. How far can it drift? I wish it could be as far as possible, so Shaun, you could end this pain. I love you, I really do. What else can I say, there's nothing I can do. I can't take a gun and point it against your head forcing you to love me the way you used to again. The more I love you the more I hurt. What's the use...