If you don't know how to cherish me, then I'll find someone else who does.
Are you happy now? (:
Hahs, after 3 months, Aaron told me he's happy for me,
happy that he can finally see the happy me again.
Happy that after he's tried so many times to cheer me up or get myself out from those miseries till he gave up.
For these past few months I kept crying alone, without you knowing.
When I cry and people see, I told them to promise me not to tell you.
Because I don't want you to see that I'm sad, I don't want to affect your studies.
Do you know, whenever I see you or whenever I'm alone,
I'll always think of this. If you ever ask me for a patch up, would I accept it?
For the first month we broke off, my answer was perfectly yes.
For the second month, after watching you like someone else, my decision became unsure.
For this third month, I was afraid. Afraid I might be hurt again, and then my answer eventually became a no.
Whenever I see Jerry comment on your status I would always click on it to see what you're thinking, I even checked his whole profile for your name.
From top to bottom, till the day he added me.
Could you imagine how many times I clicked on the "Older posts" ?
Now? I don't want to care anymore... I don't even need to care.
You don't give a damn about me, so why should I?
And do you know that my phone was confiscated for 2months because of you?
I was in SS class, staring at your photo for exactly 20minutes without moving.
Teacher walked up and took my phone away, till now I can't message anyone or take my memory card.
My file was translucent and remembered the other day you walked past my class?
A pencil was on my hand.
I scribbled the whole file "I HATE SHAUN YAP ENG SIANG"
Yeah, I did cry many times, but why should I cry for someone who doesn't care about me.
Why should I cry for someone who won't cry over me.
Why should I cry for someone who likes someone else.
Why should I do so much for you.
I thought that being nice to you no matter how you treated me was the best I could do.
But what do I gain? Fuck care attitude and ignorance. Most of all, pain.
I've had enough (:
Can you tell me, what's the use of doing so much for you?Covered up with make up in the mirror,
Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again.
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now, as she falls to the ground.
Well I'll tell you my friend one day, this world's going to end.
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
